So sick and tired. So sick of telling myself its going to be okay, but it wont in the end.

SIMONE, WHEN THE FUCK ARE YOU GONNA LEARN TO GIVE UP COMPLETELY?

I've got a world of chances for you;

What is it like to be loved?

What is it like to be not single?

What is it like to know that someone is missing you every second?

What is it like to know that he will call you at night?

What is it like to see his text first thing you wake up in the morning?

What is it like to text him 24/7?

What is it like to hold his hand for the first time?

What is it like to be called 'baby'?

What is it like to be hug till you're all warm up?

What is it like to share meals with him cause you cant finish yours?

What is it like to see him standing at your door trying to surprise you, but failed?

What is it like to receive his present/card on your birthday?

What is it like when he insisted that he wished you first on your birthday?

What is it like to be called beautiful when you're at your most ugly moment?

What is it like to be tuck to bed?

What is it like to be put to sleep through the phone?

What is it like when he plays your favorite song even though he sucks at it?

What is it like when he says 'Ily too' when you say Ily?

What is it like when he makes fun of you when you do silly things?

What is it like to sit real close in the cinema?

What is it like when both your lips entwine?

What is it like when he says goodnight and kiss you on the forehead?

What is it like when he sends you home, he drives extra slow?

What is it like when you know he choose to talk/chat with you instead of playing Dota?

What is it like when he takes your phone and start going thru your inbox and ask 'WHO IS THIS GUY'?

What is it like texting or talking on the phone with him even though you're so damn f*cking sleepy?

What is it like to tease each other?

What is it like when he's trying to make you jealous?

What is it like when you merajuk he'll come and say ' dont laa babyyyyy'?

What is it like when some random guy stalks you in Facebook, & he ask him to back off'?

What is it like when he ties your shoe lace just because you're too lazy to bend down?

What is it like when he randomly strokes your hair and say 'what shampoo you use ah?'

What is it like when he wants to camwhore with you?

What is it like when he asks you to put down the phone first?

What is it like when you're out of town, he spams your facebook wall?

What is it like to know that his friends know you cause he always talk bout you around his friends?

What is it like when he lies on your lap and sleep during car rides?

What is it like when you mess his hair up? Will he give you faces?

What is it like when your friends accept him?

What is it like to see the sunrise with him?

What is it like to see him sleep like a log or drool on his pillow?

What is it like to slowdance with him on the dancefloor?

What is it like to tell him where ever you're going and with whom?

What is it like to think of him even when you're having exams?

What is it like when he makes you mad and he makes up after that?

What is it like when he brings you to fancy dinners and say 'babe, im broke after this dinner kay?'

What is it like when you know he is using the wallet you gave him on his birthday?

What is it like when both of you watch a boring movie and he fell asleep on your shoulder?

What is it like when he laughs at your joke and say syg, you're damn lame!

What is it like to ask him to calm down when he's super pissed off?

What is it like when he tries to cheer you up cause you're mad?

What is it like to call him 'my boyfriend'?

What is it like to dream bout him and wake up smiling the next morning?

What is it like to take at least 1 hour to dress up nicely just cause you're going out with him?

What is it like when you know everything's going to be okay when he's around?

BUT ;

What is it like to know that he doesn't care anymore?

What is it like to know that he wont call anymore?

What is it like to know that he changed his relationship status to single?

What is it like to know that he'll just wish you on your birthday and he wont be the first?

What is it like to know that he wont tuck you to bed anymore?

What is it like to know that you dont have to tell him where ever you're going anymore?

What is it like to know that he wont call you baby anymore?

What is it like when he doesn't tease you or makes fun of you anymore?

What is it like when you know he likes someone new?

What is it like when you have your heart broken?

So, love. Could be ugly, but pretty at the same time. Is mine around the corner?

xx`

Never gonna be alone;

I met up with be! :D It was good seeing you, Abel. Kinda awkward but good in a way? haha. Should definitely hang out again(:

SHOPPING TODAYYYYY! And im gonna see Pauline, my love :D imisshertoomuch :/

Prom? yes? no? sigh.

xo (:

omg its december;

Look what i've found :

BRACE FACE. heh. ikindamissmybraces.

Ulcer on my tongue and its damn freaking painful ): And its December. Can you imagine? Time flies like a bitchh D: I remember i was having fever last year during Christmas, boo. So what should this year's be? Hm, should i go for prom? yes? no? its 120 bucks and me+shopping = bankrupt :D

xo.

Ten million fireflies lit up the world as i fell asleep;

fuck everything la. srsly. i wanna get outta here.

i need my girls ):

So, has the game started? What am i gonna do now? Just sit and keep guessing? Is that what you want me to do? Sorry, im not a fucking idiot. And i was furious that i had to find out that way and you didnt say anything bout it at all. Not a single word. i feel so stupid, i guess i cant face the fact then. But now, it totally changed my mind inside out. What the hell am i doing, waiting around?

im done.

...;

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Its 5.15 am, and i cant sleep. And i woke Asyraf up :/ im such an idiot. omgg.

Well, i was reading thru my blog. Then i saw something. On July 25th 08 (: From then on, all my post was like super happy until mid Sept. Damn :/ It was one of the memorable month laaa. All my post got 'be' here and there :P and ilys and imys. Hahah.

I missed the times where i always have to calm you down after you had a fight with your dad. Or the part where you tried to make me jealous with another girl, but you failed miserably! And you always tell me that you would bring me to your secret spot at Monterez, even till now. Where i asked you to stop smoking and you said you did, but you confessed after 2 weeks that you didnt stopped at all. We would spend the whole day texting if we couldnt see each other. I'll always smile after reading your goodnight msges cause they're like super the sweet :D i've always love them btw! :D and when you say im sweet i would answer, its not like you taste me before right? how you know :P and alot more cheesy and corny texts! Where you would call, and sweet talk me kao kao and put me to sleep after that, cause you know i like being pampered. Heee :D We sold every single thing at the basketball tournament and made money! but sadly, it wasnt for us -.- and i hate it when we argue over small things but we make up in the end. I still remember when things got really bad and we knew its gonna end. Not a good feeling i tell you! D: and i was crying to my two lovelies. And i was wondering why you didnt make things work. But the problem wasnt bout that. I regretted for not making space for better communication.

remember this?! Omgg, young and naive :P *maluuuuuu.

Its been a year. And we still call each other be, hahah. Although its just a short one month+ i had fun. At least it felt real and i was happy, but it doesnt mean im not happy now la. Isangathappytothecorelanow. And it was all puppy love before this. Hahah, true? :P And now, we became good friends. wooots. And omg la wei, i can actually remember how you confessed to me when you say you didnt stopped smoking -.- gonna kill you la, srsly. Dont worry, im not falling for you all over again, dont kembang okay? :P i just have the urge to blog cause i miss the feeling (:

Be, i miss you! Lepak soon (;

It is now 6.04am & its raining. OMG. why are my eyes wide open? ohh, STUPID TEH AIS! ass.

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Im home from Kgsaaaaaaassss. heh. watched the two Megats eat -.- and went lepak at GreenVille. hahah<3 Eddy and I went to visit Pauline! :D miss her laaaa. Okay, im so lazy to bath, but i will bath cause i know i will bath la. Wait, i have the urge to play Sims doh :/ okay, im going to bath. Are you gonna bath too? no? cause you bath dy right? yes? no? you dont know. Kay im going to bath now. BYE! :D

xo`

CheyJackson was here;

It is actually Thursday now, but I have no idea why it says Wednesday, heh. Mone fix your blog! HAHA:D <3

Listening to you play Bella's Lullaby now. Can just fall asleep lah with anyone playing it over & over again(: Though sometimes when she plays the piano & remix's some songs, it can drive me insane, BUUUTTTT I still...
Love you lah, Simone Lai Moong Hwa. HAHAHA.
Don't let anybody bring you down, if they do, well, get back right up when they do(:

We're gonna watch 90210 s2 & GG s3 together gether now! :D ( Right after she mandis, since it's 3pm & she still hasn't mandi-ed yet. ew. heh. )




LOVE YOU TILL THE WORLD COMES DOWN!
( Is this your 'navy blue', Mone? (; )